dysfunctional eid

actually I don’t really like to use the words such as eid, iftar and all that.. sound so…. mewah gitu.. as a humble person (yes I am humble.. please do take note) I prefer to use the word hari raya posa and berbuka posa… by the way I kan pure perakians so I wanted to remain sound like one.. ho ho..

by the way happy eid. Selamat hari raya… even tho hari ni dah hari ke… 8… tapi rasa mcm dah lama gila raya.. yela… I day 3 of eid dah start kerja… what to do.. ada staff replace staff yang maternity.. tapi orang skang mana reti ber.. tolak ansur.. aku nak cuti aku tetap nak cuti.. pi mampus tak ada sapa pon.. hehe.. oops.. so I as a person yang reti tolak ansur (puji diri sendiri mode) memberi peluang kepada orang-orang supaya bercuti.. xpela.. pentingkan diri sendiri bukan dapat apa pon kan??

apa2pon I do think I had dysfunctional eid… lumrah syawal kami sefamilia.. or maybe me myself aje tidak la berfungsi seperti orang2 yang lain menyambutnya.. maybe aku aje perasan.. tapi the feeling is not there. Maybe ada during the 1^st syawal sahaja..

this year aku beraya lebih awal dari semua orang sebab on the last day of ramadhan, I cannot puasa already.. so aku beraya awal..  tapi beraya awal tak semestinya bercuti awal.. I have so many kerja to do before raya sebab aku apply leave a week after raya for hospital appt and tidur purpose, I have to go back at 6 on the last day of puasa… (#Q)Q)Q# sgt tau.. so no cooking rending or rebus ketupat for moi.. and tup2 esok dah raya.. da fuq sgt tau. Listening to the takbir raya really buat aku rasa sedih dan rasa sgt2 nak menangis.. but I have a technique to gulp kan rasa sedih.. cry few titik air mata and suck the feeling… pejam mata and berlapang dada.. insyaAllah.. tak mau dihinggap penyakit yang menjelikkan iaitu self pity.

So hari raya prepared everything then makan2.. owh forgot to mention, hari raya tahun ni I got two things attached with me. 1 dysmenorrhea & number 2 3 huge ulcer di bibir.. so kena tahan la. Makan2 enjoy sikit2 then layan sakit, then a bit afternoon my aunties dtg.. all the way from shah alam.. makan2 sikit then relax and tidur.. 2^nd day raya… went to the pusara to visit my late abah… this year aku rasa a bit tense… watched tanyalah ustaz.. ustaz kata if we talk to .. err.. I mean In front of the grave, the person will eventually hear us.. so I am really2 sad masa tu.. I felt sad.. guilty for being not so good daughter to my dad. I mmg taknak la menangis.. but I did say dalam hati.. I do miss my abah so much. And yeah its been 6 years since… he gone.6x raya dah..

Then balik we went to subang parade for brunch @ manhattan fish.. then at night we went for open hse at my BIL hse in subang jaya… singgah sekejap di tutti frutti beside k4 subang jaya..

The next day I work for half day.. then balik kerja.. lepak2 chill2.. on Sunday, went for a movie watched percy Jackson.. and on Monday went to the hospital to take medicide and pergi sunway pyramid bought some electronic items using AEON jusco voucher worth RM100 dpt from supplier.. makan2 at station kopitiam and balik. That afternoon a good friend of mine Umie visit me with her bulky tummy. Anak no 3… hueh hueh.. and then tidur awal again. And selasa.. spend the whole day relaxing and cuci baju kemas rumah… and itu aje lah.

Mcm hari normal aje… kadang2 aku risau.. what if aku dapat suami (hahahahaha) and in laws yang jenis raya gila babeng.. visit the whole Malaysia, jalan2 open house and visiting sudara mara situ sini jalan masak meriah gila babi…. How eh? How do I cope? Or maybe sebab ketidakmampuan aku menyebabkan aku.. masih.. haha bujang?

Yes… maybe.. I cant handle in laws.. bro sist mother father.. hueh hueh

I myself macam dysfunctional how could I handle such a family yang bersistematic? Masak pon sendu2 aje.. hueh hueh.. kemas rumah? Rare. I think I boleh handle cuma belum diberi peluang and I am lazy.. hahaha

Yeps.. mmg such a very2 useless entry tapi nak jugak tulis..

And now.. I am waiting for mr RM50+50+20+33+30 claims… RM183.00 ko.. dah 16 hb ni.. yes.. I need that money.. boleh beli jeans..

Haha… apa2lah… janji masa menulis ni I busy.. happy la jugak sbb dah 16. sat lagi gaji kan? haha tata.

Salam eid.

p/s: apakah aku menulis blog kerana ia adalah satu2nya medium menghubungkan me & you? .. you rasa? (you know who you are) hahaha… maybe yes. I really appreciate your presence.. err betul ke ejaan? And will you layan my pesanan if I pesan barang from NYUSOA? lols.. u know i know where u go.

L